Dionysus was at all periods a god of the people… “the Liberator” – the god who by very simple means, or by other means not simple, enables you for a short time to stop being yourself, and thereby sets you free. That was, I think, the main secret of his appeal to the Archaic Age: not only because life in that age was often a thing to escape from, but more specifically because the individual, as the modern world knows him, began in that age to emerge for the first time from the old solidarity of the family and found the unfamiliar burden of individual responsibility hard to bear. Dionysus could lift it from him. For Dionysus was the Master of Magical Illusions, who could make a vine grow out of a ship’s plank, and in general enable his votaries to see the world as the world’s not. As the Scythians in Herodotus put it, ”Dionysus leads people on to behave madly” – which could mean anything from “letting yourself go” to becoming “possessed.” The aim of his cult was ecstasis – which again could mean anything from “taking you out of yourself ” to a profound alteration of personality.
– E.R. Dodds, The Greeks and The Irrational
Now it’s time to play dress up, and look the part of a repentant and recovered patient of the mental establishment. What was my crime? I didn’t function in the world. No, I did not. I was outed by The Los Angeles Times several years ago and a whole disorder labeled “orthorexia” was fed ignition: There was a young woman who had a breakdown in Whole Foods because she couldn’t decide between either swiss chard or kale. Yes, there was a breakdown but it was as if the Tower of Babel had toppled, and I was left alone for the first time able to recognize the condition of my Being – not in the world – but in Myself. What language would I use? Clearly I had not been understood, and I had tried in vain to idiotize myself. It simply did not satisfy. So, I gave in. Eating disorders I may address in a moment, but take patience, as I took my treatment. Orthorexia nervosa is perhaps best summarized as an obsession with healthy eating with associated restrictive behaviors. The attempt to attain optimum health through attention to diet may lead to malnourishment, loss of relationships, and poor quality of life. I answered the ad for a face of the disease “orthorexia”, and I took on the concern of others, to the horror of my spirit. Luckily, I came out the other side and now redeem myself to Myself in my testimonial.
The private sanitarium I volunteered to enter. And thus,I was not the ward of the state. I let myself believe the lie that society gave a rat’s tail about me as an individual, until I realized, quite simply, that it did not. And, thus, I am now free both in myself and of the world. I am not a slacker. I earned my right to drop out. And I do not pretend an attitude of laissez faire. Oh, I care. Make no mistake, I care very much: I am not playing video games and pretending life is dumb. Life is a miracle, but the world is questionable in all areas.
It is true that I may pose a threat. I am not a threat to myself, but to you, I may be. Regardless, I will own my soul and I will pay you to keep away if you do not understand a word like “Nay”. It means “No”. What does “No” mean? —— ! You see, I don’t use tax dollars for funding. Tax dollars were very much not used in the creation of this speaker. I am able to get out from under and pay for my drugs and act the fool for the Fudds and be the fool I want to be in my own conception of Time Immemorial. Sacred space.